?

Log in

No account? Create an account

Depression, again!!!

« previous entry | next entry »
Apr. 1st, 2004 | 11:52 pm
気持ち: gloomy gloomy
音楽: School of rock DVD

I am so sorry to sit hear and write down how depressed I am, but I need an outlet, and I am using this to "vent" in one way or another. This morning I woke up with the wickedest thought I have ever had.... I actually thought about quitting college. Let me break down the situation for me: I am currently about one year from finishing my Master's program, and becoming a certified teacher. But this morning, I was sitting thinking about everything, and I just thought about quitting. Then I thought, I really need someone to talk to, but when I thought about who I could talk to, I realized, I do not have anyone I could talk to about how I feel. Everyone in my cohort, I felt there was no one I could just open up to and say that I am stressed, depressed and thinking about tons and tons of thing I am missing out because of this program. Then, I got up, out of bed, into my car, drove to Kailua and visited the room I will be working in for the next 8 weeks. Upon walking in the classroom, something happen, a metamorphpsis, suddenly, I was rejuvenated, and a wonderful thought came in for a Unit, Watercolors. Sitting in the classroom, thinking about the next 8 weeks, put a smile on my face, and I was happy to rethink my decision. So, Here I am willing to continue on with my program!! But, small amounts of depression still remain, and it would help to have support, so, please help support me anyway you can!! Thanks.

Link | Purr | Share


Comments {8}

RoCk iT mAtE!

Sau

From: mediocresau
Date: Apr. 2nd, 2004 08:04 am (UTC)
Link

Com'on mate, I know you can shake this like a Polaroid picture. Sometimes you just gotta do stuff *a program* to get further in life. Crap, I hate missing out on life too, but there are times when you just have to buck down and do it. Besides...just look at your little iBook that you got after graduation and it'll make you smile. :-)

P.S. Hey dude, did you get an Airport card for that iBook yet? If you did, you should turn it on and go driving around your area, seeking free hotspots! Cheee-hooo!

Reply | Thread


Re: RoCk iT mAtE!

hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Apr. 2nd, 2004 10:56 am (UTC)
Link

Thank Sau!!! Actually, I need too save up foor thhe Airport card. Righht now is not the time, perhaps this fall when I figure out my financial aid foor Fall semester, I might, but not now. Anyway, thanks for the support!! Hangin' tough!!

Reply | Parent | Thread


jwacha

From: jwacha
Date: Apr. 2nd, 2004 12:13 pm (UTC)
Link

Hey, try and hang in there. School stuff can be tough sometimes, but I bet you'll miss it once you graduate. I graduated in 2002, and I'm starting to feel my brain go to mush.
Something that I like to do when I'm feeling down is visit the puppies at Pet Warehouse, it's near the airport, off Sand Island Access Road I think.

Reply | Thread


hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Apr. 3rd, 2004 11:33 am (UTC)
Link

Thanks for your support, I sooo appreciate it. College is rough, undergrad was a joke, but Grad is not and I have realized it.. I nearly broke down crying because oof how tough my life has been. So thanks for your support. I only have one year and a month left, so wish me luck. Thanks.

Reply | Parent | Thread


From: takeme2paradise
Date: Apr. 3rd, 2004 11:36 am (UTC)
Link


I know its not the same as a friend in person, but email or IM me whenever you like if you need to chat.

Reply | Thread


hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Apr. 3rd, 2004 01:01 pm (UTC)
Link

will, do, thanks foor your support, much needed and appreciated.

Reply | Parent | Thread


jwacha

From: jwacha
Date: Apr. 8th, 2004 11:05 pm (UTC)
Link

Hey, are you ok? You haven't posted in a little while...

Reply | Thread


Heyyyyyy...

From: tiptoetulip
Date: Apr. 11th, 2004 10:48 pm (UTC)
Link


Okay, so I have been distracted again, and since you told me about LiveJournal, here I am. I just wanted to say good that you have a renewed excitement about teaching...we have to cling to those little things that keep us going. I have my highs and my lows. Right now I am in-between. Maybe I should be working on my unit...

Reply | Thread