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Sep. 4th, 2007 | 09:56 pm


When will people just seriously grow up? I was in conversation with one of my dearest friends and apparently she met another friend in a different part of the island for lunch. Turns out, they began a conversation about me.

Here's the synopsis:

My friend, whom I have been actively conversing with for over 3 years and is more sister to me than lover, is totally not my type, but everywhere we go people keeping misunderstanding our relationship and thinking it is more than what it really is. Yes, this is totally aggravating. It's like, "no, you two can't be just friends. No, you need to be lovers. There can be no non-sexual relationship between man and woman unless it is one of the following conditions:

1) Blood related (not that that stops some people....<.< >.>)

2) she is a lesbian

3) He is gay.

Well, sadly, it appears everyone I encounter, thinks I am gay! WTF! So, men cannot like pink. Men cannot like "Hello Kitty" apparently I am out-casted by society just on my interests alone. Well, excuse me for like said items. But I am not going to change because the majority is too closed minded to accept a person for who they are. What a hypocritical society we live in. Seriously. Yet, no one ever sees just how "girl" crazy I am . I check out nearly every girl that walks my way or is in the area. Yet, no one (aside from my best friend) sees that. I mean, I am really bad. I can get lose thought at the site of a pretty face or "my type" of girl you know. I have millions of times. Seriously. I can't help it. I find women....wonderful! I love em! Big time.

Well, I know that no one here has "judged" me yet, or they have and are holding their tongues. But I just wanted to "shout" that fact about me out. I am really upset that people constantly judge me only on what they see and never take the time to really get to know who I really am, but have the gull to state I am something that I am not!

Oh well, it is this moments in life that are the most trying and challenging, but rewarding when said challenge is defeated. But hearing people spill rumors like that about me, makes me want to do the wrong thing, find a woman to be with, just for the spite of it. And that...is what I really don't want to do. I have been down that road and not interested in returning again.

Alrighty. Night all
Passed bedtime, need to sleep.



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Katalan Dietrik

From: katalan_42
Date: Sep. 5th, 2007 08:51 am (UTC)
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Wow.. That sucks dude. My family assumed I was a lesbian cause I wasn't having sex. It sucks and is very annoying. You have my sympathies.

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hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Sep. 5th, 2007 09:44 am (UTC)
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wow! someone who totally understands what I mean! Woot woot. thanks mate! That means a lot to me. Seriously. I am just really tired of it all. I mean, it is one thing to hear from someone you don't know or just met for the first time, but a different story when someone you know and thought were a "friend" goes and starts to assume that about you. I mean, it's like, "what? I haven't been around you long enough for you to notice that, 'hey, I'm not gay?!?!?'" Aside from that fact that I actually liked said person. She was(nah, is) my type of woman too. Why not make the move? Because like all women who fall into my "I like" category, she is with a boyfriend and has been with him for some odd amount of years. So that is totally not me to go and ruin that. And I purposefully try not to hang out with her too much as I don't want to develope deeper feelings than necessary for her either. I even, at one point, had it in for her older sister as well. But her sister has no interest in me and she's getting married come ocotober with some bloke she really does not love (sad). Still she goes and questions my best friend about my sexual orientation. What do I need to do? Hit on you so you can see that "yes, I like women!" If I never engaged i conversation with her about my relationship status, again I could understand, but we have had conversation and she even attempted to hook me up with someone (long story short....that girl was totally not my type either...too much "close-mindedness.") So, yeah, I am quite appalled that she would go that route to confirm something that was previously mentioned and discussed. And her only points to "deny" the fact that I am heterosexual is..."Hello Kitty" From what I gather she mentioned to my best friend..."well, he likes Hello Kitty, so I mean, are you sure he's not gay?"

final note (for realz this time): how is it a group of 7 year olds can figure out why I like Hello Kitty, but fucking adults have such a big issue about it??? Is it that....twisted?

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From: echoproject
Date: Sep. 5th, 2007 10:26 am (UTC)
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you know what you gotta do... randomly bring up how great tits are. unleash your masculine dominating chauvanistic side and feel up every woman tht comes within an ass slapping distance from you.

seriously though dude your super cool as you are and one day youl find a girl who loves you BECAUSE of everything youve listed and you can bond over hello kitty and how great pink is and then go all stud muffin on her after, make sure she knows your far from gay ;). women love shared intrests. just dont let them think you wanna "just be friends" if you want more.

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hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Sep. 6th, 2007 05:16 am (UTC)
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Thanks for your thoughts....honestly. I just think that this is something I have battled time and time again. the funny thing is....people who are my "true" friends accept that fact of me and do not stigmatize me for it. They "KNOW" I am not gay. Seriously. If we ever met, you would be surprised how many times I turn my head when I see a good-looking woman. I'm bad! But...I don't go around being all chauvanistic about either.

Again. Thanks for your input and yes, I will continue to be the only thing I know how to be...me.

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From: peachii
Date: Sep. 5th, 2007 02:22 pm (UTC)
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Liking pink and hello kitty only makes you cooler!

I completely agree, it's ridiculous these rules society has. My family is like katalan_42's.. they make comments like, "When are you going to have a baby?" to test me hahaha.

Whenever I feel stupid for being a little different I just think, "Well better to be odd and interesting than normal and dull!!!" You can use it too~!

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Katalan Dietrik

From: katalan_42
Date: Sep. 6th, 2007 12:13 am (UTC)
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I understand the Hello Kitty, but.. pink? *shudders* =P

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hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Sep. 6th, 2007 05:12 am (UTC)
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Hmmmmm, and that is what our "normal" society (American) thinks. I do thank you, Kat, for your thoughts. Please don't think I am blasting/flaming you. Your thoughts and opinion are welcomed and considered, really. Yeah, I know...Men liking Pink. That is a big one. And after reading your comment, Kat, I have been slightly thinking about it. But this is the way I see it. I would rather live me life being who I am, than constricting myself and being something I am not. I would rather be in love with someone who love me for who I really am, a pink and Hello Kitty loving guy, than be in a relationship where I have to pretend to be someone I am not. Sheer happiness is knowing who you are and first and foremost accepting who you are. Loving yourself. And that is what I have been trying to do for the longest time. When I finally through up my hands and said, "fuck the world, I am going to buy those Hello Kitty accssories (pencil cases, notebooks, etc...), I realized then that I was happier with that than without, or pretending to like something I really didn't care for. In my eyes, it takes an even stronger man to stand up and embrace his feminine side as well as his masculine side. To me, real men are those who are not afraid to cook, clean, cry, purchase Hello Kitty and enjoy a "lighter" color of life, on top of being a masculine man. No, I don't work out. I don't have big giant muscles to flex and show off. Hell, I can truly understand why people constantly look at me and think, "guy's a queer." Look at my career, FFS. Not many men go into teaching. Ad those who do teach "Manly" subjects (i.e. math science, etc...) not elementary school kids, and espeially not lower elementary (k-2). But...I do. I enjoy it. I enjoy my career, I enjoy the fact that I am a bit more..."feminine" than most guys. And as echo stated, if people can't handle that, than that is there problem not mine. I just would like them to keep that to themselves and not bother me about it. =p

Sorry, I just couldn't let that whole...."pink.....shudders" go without saying something. I do enjoy your opinion and thoughts. Please don't think badly of me. And see you online!

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hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Sep. 6th, 2007 05:55 am (UTC)
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Oh.....This just in.....i didn't know you hate pink! Hahaha.. do I feel foolish or what?!?!?!? Lack of convo often creates misunderstanding in all shapes and form. This is why it is important to communicate with people! ha! Sorry about the above long winded explanation....well, if any other....um....wanderers venture to this journal, we have given them something to....a.....ponder! =p

Thanks again!

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Katalan Dietrik

From: katalan_42
Date: Sep. 6th, 2007 06:31 am (UTC)
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lol.. I'm sorry. I was just picking on you. I know several guys who like or wear pink. My dad had no problem whatsoever with wearing it.



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hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Sep. 6th, 2007 07:40 am (UTC)
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NIce....hats off to him. Watch, I end up with a daughter who is like you....*gasps* hates pink! NOOOOOOOOOO! or....she will become pink hating...=(

nah, to each their own. I respect that fact. Honestly, I do. Well, time to put some time on the story.

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