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Dec. 31st, 2006 | 05:49 pm
居場所: New Year's eve....home, for now

Reflections....


That's what this will be, as it iis not the New Year just yet. Howver, i need topost as quickly as I can..... So, without any further ado, here is the cut:




To start, I may come back and add to this later...But then again, I may not, LOL.

1. MMORPG

I have been playing this game for well over a year now and I must admit that I have even begun to make some really cool friends from the game. One memorable moment was when three players: a ranger, a warrior and a mage, literally owned a game of Castle Wars (Castle Wars is Runescape's version of Capture the Flag. Very entertaining). So, here is a picture of my little CW posse: Sausageman, Echo, and me!!



Upon reflecting....i still enjoy the game and do plan on continuing my gameplay in the new year.

2. Career:

This new school year, I have been feling the 3 year burn of teaching. As with anything, once you make 3 years, it either makes or breaks you. I am at that point right now. I have been deeply considering if I should stay in the field of education of venture out and try something new. Well, I can't really go and venture out too far as I don't have money to do it. But one thing is for sure, I need to either focus on finishing this year strong, or consider looking for a different profession. I have been enjoying it, but I am also feeling the stress of the necessary need to push students to perform academically. And that is where the stress comes in. Everything is about Standardize tests and nothing is about building a whole person. And I think that is where I have been feeling the burn. So, what is in store for me?? Continuing education, or bailing out? I have a feeling that many people are thinking that I will bail....quite frankly, I have been feeling like I should. But, I am not a quitter either. I think that i just need to take time and reassess my options. i don't really want to leave, but the stress is really killing me.

3. Family

It was nice to reconnect with my father this year. He has been a huge help with me at home. I can't believe how much support he has given me. So, I would like to definitely continue that relationship. My mother, on the other hand, is going to be a little tougher. I would like to reconnect with her, but I know that I become very upset with her in everything she does in regards to me. She has been a disappointment to me in more ways one. I don't know what to do with that in all honesty. I just think maybe I should come out and try to repair what ever holes we have in our relationship (though a lot of them fall all the way to high school days). I really don't know if I am willing to go through all that emotional drama.

4. Friends

Well, I have been doing well in making friends, I am just not used to going out of the house as much as I have been going. Being a computer geek and all entails staying at home and being, well, geeky. But I have been trying to get out more, which is awkward for me, but...I am trying, I just think it will take more time...maybe. At least I am working on making friends, so not too bad.

5. Love

I give up. I am not going to continue to maul over the lack of....love. It is pointless. I have tried to hard and always come up with the same results....nothing. This year has sucked as with last year and the year before. I am not the type of guy to walk in a bar/club and hit on any Jane, Mary, or Sue. I am too old to play the dating game. I am too tired to play the dating game. Honestly speaking....I have been contemplating just meeting some South East Asian girl and just getting hitched. But I don't even have the money for that either, lol! Oh well, love sucks...for me, at least. I am just too damn picky and that may be what is preventing me from going for a woman. I am not looking for someone just to date. I am looking for someone to be serious with and if I feel that there is no possible long term future with her, I don't want to bother. Wait, I have just been enlightened! That is why! Hahaha. No possible future = no motivation.



Well, that is it for 2006! Good-bye and good riddance!

next post: goals for 2007....

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yamkaori

From: yamkaori
Date: Jan. 1st, 2007 10:52 pm (UTC)
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hi!happy new year!i wish you best! :)

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yamkaori

From: yamkaori
Date: Jan. 1st, 2007 11:03 pm (UTC)
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and,don't give up about love!!!!you will find a love that never last in this year!!!頑張ろうね!!

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hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Jan. 2nd, 2007 10:24 am (UTC)
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Nah, I give up!! LOL! 時間がないもん!も〜〜ええわ!ヘヘヘヘヘハハハッハハ

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happy new year!

porcelain ocean

From: porcelain_ocean
Date: Jan. 2nd, 2007 12:55 am (UTC)
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sounds like an interesting year for you, even if it didn't turn out quite the way you had planned. It's amazing how little epiphanies can change everything. I've hit the same love-wall as you have. Lemme know if you find a way to scale it.

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Re: happy new year!

hisensei808

From: hisensei808
Date: Jan. 2nd, 2007 10:23 am (UTC)
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Bloody love wall!!! HOw to scale it?? Scale, forget it, how about I just fly over it...? No?

Scaling takes such a long time, so I don't know if I will scale it at all. I think I'll just remain on the ground a look at it, or buy some spray paint and color it pink! What do you think? Shall we color the bloody wall pink?

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